Anger Managemen

I'm not going to write much tonight. I say that now, but we'll see where I actually end. I'm really mad right now is all, and all I need to do is spend more time venting. Venting never helped me. It only makes things worse because it convinces me that I am justified in my anger. I really do have an anger management problem though. It's rare that I do get angry, but when I do, it's highly likely that I'll overreact about something or blow up and burn a bridge or two. The only thing is that my bridges are a lot bigger and more important these days than when I was growing up. Sometimes I just wish I didn't care. I wish nothing bothered me and that I didn't care about anyone's feelings. But I do care, and to the point where it's futile. You can't please everyone all of the time, but whenever anyone is displeased with me it drives me out of my mind, so I'm being driven out of my mind a lot.

No amount of writing is going to get to the bottom of this. I'm going to close my door, watch a movie, and go to bed. I just want to be alone for a while.