The Last of the Road for a While

We're going home now. The bus engine just started and we're all sitting here full and content from a wonderful home-cooked meal. We're going back to Nashville where work waits for me first thing in the morning. I get off the bus, hop in my car, and go to grind away on a job that, as of now, I know not where it is.

I suppose that means it's time to reflect on the total experience. I know we're not done yet. We have one more show to play in Jacksonville FL next week, but I feel like this is the real part of the tour. I know it wasn't long, but I really enjoyed it. I felt special again, like I mattered. Paul and I were talking about it this morning and I expressed to him that when I'm home, I feel like a machine, that I don't really matter at the workplace other than my ability to perform. I know it's not that way to everyone I work with, but for the most part, I feel like a number.

On this tour, everyone poured a lot of confidence in me, untested confidence. They took me in as one of their own and they trusted me to do the job they were hoping for. I'm not perfect at engineering, but they were very patient and encouraging. I think I said that last night, but the reiteration of that should say something.

I can't look down on going back. There are a lot of good things in Nashville and I have the ability to be happy if I so desire. The trip has been good to show me that. I've been so full of joy for these past few days. I want to take that with me so bad. I've been trapped in the dark for a while now, in mundane activity, self pity, mourning of lost love. I felt so relieved when I got on the bus, even though I knew it wouldn't be easy. I'm just so honored to have been a part of this, and when I get back, I will be looking for more gigs for sure.

I guess I can't say enough good things about all that has happened. I documented it as best I could.


Peace and love.














P.S. This was our bus driver Dave. He's the man and he's been with all sorts of big acts. We won't have him on the final leg to Florida, and that sucks. But anyways, I salute him.