Growlings

I'm growing a lot right now. I can feel it. Pretty much every where I turn I face the option of feeling sorry for myself, or standing up and being a "man" about things. Now I say being a "man". That word has many definitions. My definition of being a "man" is taking the hard way because it has more to offer. That simply means that you dwell on higher things, you desire the right an honorable rout in every situation, and you desire to make Christ your center.

I strive for it all the time, but I'm better at failure than I am at success. I think the hardest part has to be being hated and ostracized by the people around me. It wears me down that the people I care about feel hate towards me and conspire behind my back. But we all have the option to choose the path we take. Hatred or love, selfishness or servitude. As hard as it is, I will continue to strive to be the servant. I will fight the hatred in my heart and my selfish nature in order to be the man I need to be.