I'll Do the Best I Can

This week was really stressful. I was offered a job in Raleigh on Tuesday morning that would have appeared to be a great opportunity, but initially I didn't take it so well. What it meant in my life was that I had to let go of everything I've held on to for the past five years, and move on... all in about two weeks. That was a lot to chew in one day. So time progressed and I got the council I needed in order to make a better decision and I finally declined Friday. I did it because I just don't think I'm ready and I don't think I have the experience I would like to have in order to feel secure in the position I was offered. I'm staying here for the time being, and I'll get by.

On top of all of that, little stresses have been wearing me out. I'm plagued by the sense of duty I have to make everyone around me happy, and it just can't be done. I'm not going to try anymore. I don't have the resources to do it and it's making my life miserable. I'm not going to feel bad every time I disagree with someone, or every time I say no.

So I'll get through these next few days. I'll be going to NC on Wednesday with Lindsay. I've got a few more Christmas gifts to buy and then I'm putting up the No Vacancy sign. I just need to figure out a way to better manage my stress. I need to accept the fact that I can't fix this world and it's people and all of their problems. I'll do the best I can.

Peace and love.