The Best of My Ability

I've said it many times. Happiness is perspective. The difference is what you decide to look at, and I always seem to look at the negative. Sometimes I just want to start over, to pick my life up and change everything in one night. To leave everything behind without a trace. This life isn't that convenient though. We have to deal with the good and the bad, and there's no way out of it. The best thing we can do is let go of that which we have no control over, and focus on what it is that we have going for us.

Did I control my destiny to get to this place? No. I merely made the best decisions based upon what I knew of myself and what I was offered. Were all of those decisions good ones? No way! But they brought me to this place. I've lived my life under the heavy burden that I have to make all of the right decisions or God will be disappointed in me. I don't believe that anymore and I won't stand for others trying to force that on me anymore either. No man can afford to live his life under that kind of obligation. We do not know all, see all, or understand all. Each man does right to the best of his ability, and though that might not be correct all of the time, I think God understands that about us which is why His grace doesn't cost anything.