More Writting

Being alone sends me into spirals of sadness. I'm trying to keep myself surrounded with my friends, but I have to go home at the end of the day and I still have to wake up in the morning alone. Those are the times when I am the most vulnerable. My friends have been good though, to call me, to invite me out. I really need them. I really need the Lord to sooth this immense pain. I will have to learn what to do with my time again. Staying at home alone is so horrible. Thinking on how easy it seemed for her to leave hurts me too. I am going to try to go into work tomorrow and do the best job I can. I sent an e-mail in to my supervisors to let them know what happened. It's going to be really difficult to keep my mind in the game, but I have to so I don't get hurt or hurt anyone else.