Friday, May 16, 2008

Last Night in the Basement

This is the last night I will spend in this room. Paul just told me that it's like I'm closing a chapter of my life. A lot has happened in this one year. It will be good to have new walls around me, ones that don't carry memory or blue paint.

I actually can't vouch for the fact that the walls aren't blue in my new room. I haven't ever stepped foot in this house before. I don't really care. I know the price, and I know Catherine approves of it being that she will be living there with Matt when they are married. I just know that I'm moving in tomorrow morning and the rest is really unimportant to me. I am an adaptive person... I don't know if I'll get everything over there tomorrow. I'll mostly just worry about the big stuff and then maybe move the small stuff later. We'll see. I'm throwing a lot of stuff out too. I want to start over. I want a clean slate. I am going to reinvent myself as best as I can.

I feel like I've been changing a lot over the past few months. I know I've been hurting and I've done and said things that I regret. If I haven't pissed you off yet, I thank you for your patience. I have pissed off a lot of people. But I'm changing for the better, at least it feels that way. I am entering a new environment that I think will be beneficial to my direction.

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