Don't Do It, It'll Make You Dumber

Interesting day. I got a traffic ticket first thing this morning because I went down a one way street the wrong way. Now I wasn't just sailing down completely unaware. I knew it was the wrong way, but the driveway I needed was just a few yards up that street and so I took the change. But... there was an officer sitting right there just delighted to pull out his magic pen and write me a traffic violation ticket. I wasn't mad. I just smiled, took it, and went on with my day.

I have great friends though. After church was over they gathered round and gave me a card for my birthday. It was on the seventh, but I was glad to just have something. My birthday isn't usually a big deal to me, but with the card and the ipod that they all chipped in to buy me, it was just a nice surprise. It made me feel special. I don't really feel special all that often.

After lunch and all that good stuff, I went to catch up with the guys who were at the park watching the larpers. Larpers are guys and girls who dress up in medieval garb and take foam swords, spears, whatever weapon, and have mock battles with rules. It looks pretty fun and the people were really great. I just watched though. Funny thing, this guy from VH1 was there and he was casting for the show "Pickup Artist". It's all about getting girls to go on dates with you. I as intrigued because he said you could win $50,000. Half way into the interview I realized what I was doing and I kinda threw it out the door. I just made myself seem very average and that was that. I don't think being on a show like that would be very becoming of my character. I don't want to "pick up" girls. I want to meet, get to know, and slowly form a relationship with a girl. And right now, I don't even know if I'm all that eager to do that. I'm still kinda on the mend.

But on the same token, I don't really feel like I need help. I'm getting plenty of attention as of late, not too sure why, but I am. I guess I just carry myself differently. Take, for example, this girl at the park. She sent her guy friend up to tell me that she was "into" me. It was kinda middleschoolish. I told him that I thought she was attractive, but that it's not really a good time for me. So he left and went to sit down. Then a few minutes later she came up to me and introduced herself and sat down trying to make small talk. I was nice to her and she was extremely attractive, but it's just not a good time for me, and that's not my style anyways. I don't know, I was thinking about it recently and all I really want is a loving, Godly woman, and I want it slow and steady. I'm in no hurry. I can wait now as long as it takes. But all that aside, I feel kind of weird having tried out for that show. Just not my style.

So right now I'm trying to get things in order. I want to establish some sense of organization before I start the week. I'm looking forward to this week being a little bit different than usual. I would like to see a few small changes on my day-to-day. I'll let you know what I'll be doing in order to make that happen.