Failure Free

When we attach to ourselves the identity of being a failure, that is when we truly start failing the most. I've been rather hard on myself (big surprise) about my recent failures. I don't tell a lot of people about them because I'm afraid of hurting them. Lots of people have these preconceived ideas about who I am, and some of those notions are a bit unfair in my opinion. I am not above failure, I am not above stupid mistakes. If anything, people should expect me to fail often because I am one who is prone to learning from his mistakes and not taking advice for law. But with many people, sometimes the closest people to me, I don't feel like I can share my failures because they are too caught up in worrying, regretting, or having a sense of failure to me to actually sit, listen to, and help me. The one thing that they should know about me if they know me at all is that I am resilient and hopeful to learn and not make the same mistakes twice. I am not a lost cause. But it starts with my own opinion of myself. It starts with me being able to forgive myself for failing and not confuse my failure as the end.

Otherwise, today has been nice. Work went a little slower than usual, but I don't really mind all too much. I have no reason to be off work early. I don't have anything other than working out that I would be doing with my time, even though if I had the time I could probably figure something out with little difficulty that would be constructive. I don't know, I'm kinda plain right now, not very exciting, but I'm planning mostly. The excitement will begin sooner than later. I'm getting more and more brave.

Riding my bike has been amazing lately. I won't talk about all the close calls I have because there is no use worrying all of you. It's safe to say, though, that every time you get on a bike, you should realize that you are going to have to stay far more alert than if you were in a car. I love the air though. I just went on a night ride, and it was amazing.

I'm going to bed now. Meeting at work tomorrow morning extra early.