Laid Out

I've got it all laid out in front of me. All I have to do is decide if I want it or not. I have people around me waiting, wanting for me to succeed. I can get it if I want it. I'm capable. I just lack the focus. If I could discipline myself to focus on one thing, I know I could achieve greatness. I know I could accomplish my dreams. So I'm in the face of discipline as we speak. I just got back from training my body to lift weight heavier than I thought possible. If I can discipline myself in that way, what is to stop me from the other fields.

I have been blessed. I have never wanted for anything. I have always achieved what I set my eyes towards, and I have overcome a great deal of opposition in my life. Most of it comes from myself, my failure to act, my desire for comfort. Some of it has come from other people but in more subtle forms. Sometimes even people who are close to you don't want you to succeed because it will change things. I've even been guilty of that myself.

What is success? In my opinion it has nothing to do with more money, moving up, whatever. It mostly deals with your ability to grasp that which makes you truly happy. And what is happiness? I know I said I wouldn't go into it the other day, but I can tell you what it isn't, or at least what Aristotle thought it wasn't. He believed that happiness wasn't a moment of excitement or joy, but a lifestyle, lived out every day. I tend to agree with him. Happiness has got to be a lifestyle, not a fleeting human emotion based on immediate circumstances.

But figuring out what makes you truly happy takes a large chunk of your life to figure out, and once you have figured it out, then comes the sacrifice. You can't have one thing without sacrificing another. You can't serve two masters.

I think that what makes us happy is our calling on this earth. I know that such an opinion can't be held to a universal standard because a good portion of the world doesn't even believe in a "calling." But I feel like I'm on the verge of mine. It's down to just a few more things... then again, maybe I'm way off. I'll find out soon thought, either way.