I'm That Type of Guy

I worked a 14 hour day today, so I'm a little tired right now. I'll be doing it again tomorrow, but that's okay. It really doesn't bother me as much as it used to. I still get a confined feeling every once-in-a-while, but it dissipates when there are objectives to be achieved.

Last night I took this test that shows what kind of person you are. Viking talks about being a type 4 a lot so I decided to take a look and see what all this "type" stuff is about. After taking the test it will score you in several different categories.
1: Reformer
2: Helper
3: Motivator
4: Romantic
5: Thinker
6: Skeptic
7: Enthusiast
8:Leader
9: Peace Maker

You're only supposed to look at your top three high scores, but I tied with four of them as my top scores. As a Motivator, a Romantic, and an Enthusiast, I scored a 5, and as a Helper I scored a 7. I didn't agree with it at first, but then I thought about it a lot today. This is the diagram. Look over it and see if you agree with what I'm about to say, shoot, take the test for yourself and leave a comment on your results if you want. I'd be interested to know.

After a good bit of thought, I think that I am a Helper (type 2) by nature. Looking back on my life and understanding how I deal with things, I can definitely see that. The word "manipulative" jumped out at me. I also think that my sense of guild plays into this, and my love language is definitely words of affirmation that I need on a regular basis. I fantasize about leaving my life behind to go and help people who would truly want my help. I function well in widespread crisis, specifically medical emergencies. I want to be helpful and I know that being calm is the best way. I try and give advice because I want to help. I worry a lot about how other people are feeling. A lot of that is how I am, and I can accept that.

Being a Motivator (type 3) mostly comes into play in work related environments. I prefer working alone, I look for the most efficient ways to do things, and I tend to get very frustrated when working with people who aren't efficient. I am upbeat at times, and I can balance a lot of different activities on my plate. I like objective criticism as long as it is gentle. This type compliments being a Helper in my opinion.

Being an Enthusiast (type 7)... I would say that I'm more of this than Motivator. I'd almost say that I'm more of this than I am of a Helper, but you can decide that for yourself. This compliments the other two well also. Story telling, adventures, roaming off on my own for the sake of the experience, getting lost in my plans ideals and fantasies, not being able to specialize, feeling confined in one to one relationships... You don't have to tell me about this type. This is the essence of who I am most of the time. I do feel confined by lots of things. I feel like I was made for something more than what I have achieved, so I keep the goal above my head at all times. Being a motivator helps me get there, and being a helper keeps me balanced.

Being a Romantic (type 4) is what throws a stick in my spokes. This is what gives me a duality and prevents me from faster progress. I am an introspect. I don't ride the progressive extrovert train for too long before I become enveloped in myself. I tend to be an unhealthy romantic which is what makes this all a bad blend. The dark moods, the guilt, projecting emotions onto other people... all of that gets tiresome, but I cannot deny that about myself. It is a part of who I am. I just want to be a more healthy romantic. I could see the benefit in that.

This all has given me a lot of interesting things to think about. I want to know myself because I think that the more you know yourself, the less volatile and destructive you become. It's all a part of that discipline I was talking about. But the danger rests in becoming so introspective that you get lost in yourself. I believe that the soul of man is eternal. Where it spends eternity is up to you and the Maker, but being that it is an eternal soul, I don't believe that a lifetime is enough to get to the bottom of it. Digging too deep can lead to confusion and not knowing how to get out of a hole deeper than you might have wanted to dig. I am not in it for that journey, but for the journey of self contentment in the one life that I have. Eternity will continue to yield the secrets of our souls, I think. So... no hurry and no worry.